October 2010
2 posts
“regardless of warning, the future doesnt scare me at all”
back.
Elenas back, and im happy.
Jamie’s still here im happy.
Justine is still here im happy.
Daphne is still here, im happy.
Frida left, your loss.
Ralph is still here, I love you..the end.
September 2010
3 posts
" OH Betty"
10;16 am photoclass.
I cant really remember the last time i wrote in my journal, i think its because every time i look back at things i posted i feel shitty in the end…somtimes
i start to think about how dumb i really was. haha, but i learn…no i dont.
im tired. really fucking tired..and bad back aches. no bueno.
so i will post later bitches, i have some news.
*thinks* i am 100%...
Full of regrets, suffer the consiquences..
I knew somthing horrible was going to happen to me, when somthing gets good somthing else fucks up. of course, its always been like this for me…im just stuck with shitty luck. So now let insanity begin..mmm. my favorite.
“love”..this thing we call it..it killed me. and its killing him. I dont understand why i fuck up most of the time. Not purposly. my attitude sucks. i really...
ew.
fucking photoshop class dude, this shit is wack.
….very wack.
August 2010
6 posts
being stuck in a house is somtimes good, just...
Stuck in my grandmother for the night and today, its pretty loud here, but I got the backyard to keep my thinking calm and relaxed. Im sitting here, and it almost feels like paradise, the air feels amazing, the animals are calm and walking around. Its almost like a book, instead im the monster, im the evil one who thinks it all away, haha.
I always think about him when im outside and its...
eventually....im going to say peace.
eh, tired and bored of everything.
why can you be happy with me, are you?
im so bipolar, so so so so lame.
I see the world, in a way others dont, i think of negativity when i see somthing beautiful, I think of death everyday, I see everything falling apart except for it living. I need to breathe, and smile. I need to think, and move on. But fuck it i like watching shit suffer. yeah, your a...
fuck it.
fuck i wake up with these pains in my stomach, in my fucking bones and through my veins, im stressed i hate being stressed i eat, i sleep, i think i hate this. im sopposed to feel like everyday is somthing new but its the same shit„ I need medicine, whats up with me.
down,down.
eh this week has been amazing with people i havent seen in a while, and people i spent time with… I used to always depend and love hanging with my friends but i stopped and now i miss it and love it.
last night was horrible, Im just like my father to make a long story short, why cant i stay on topic… but im tired of feeling this way. Im not going to get into it.. just hurts somtimes...
July 2010
10 posts
Anonymous asked: How come you arent following anyone?
excused Soul..
Honestly, I don’t know who I am.
In my opinion I am everything people say I am because there’s a reason they’re saying it. Right?
Just a matter of time till all the piles of words or statements build up around me.
I put a lot of thought into who I am, who I can be but I don’t interest myself.
You see, I walk around with my head up high and a mug frowned right across my...
laying in bed never been this hard.
It sucks being so so tired, and knowing your gonna wake up at about 6 or 7. No matter how hard to fall back out I can’t :/
Having stuff on your mind, and not being able to sleep is so frustrating..Sleeping alone is the worst.
I have to pee.
but i dont feel like getting up, im literaly Stuck on music right now. :]
:D
Soo im in my room on the phone and listening to music bored, and then my bestest friend came overrrr and suprised me
aborted babies.
DILLIGAF, epic convo’s with my man and his photoshop ideas.
-what a fucking nut.
Agagaaagaga.
Couldn’t see him today :\ so im taking Advantage of these phone convo’s haha :)
Again, And Again..
So i Decided to make a Tumblr again, but im not doing the whole Following shit, I just want to write. Even if its Out into the Open i know what i should or should not say.
This is until i get a Journal, writing is always somthing I loved to do to just put myself out there i guess..people figure me out somtimes with this. Or i just post things i like and find amazingggg. :)